Hii, it is so uneasy even to say "Hii" to you, because I never asked you, " How are you?",
I never asked you because i also thought of you being the strongest person on earth, you were like superman,
you can do wonders, you never cry, you had solutions and you never shared emotions,
I am staying very far away from you, I know when you call me at night everyday before you sleep, you must be feeling annoyed that i dont talk much when you call, you must have slept with a feeling that , your son doesn't love you, may be dad i ashamed of myself that i am not 1% of you,
Dad look at yourself, you are still fit, you had a savings, you had raised a son to stand on his own feet, you have a lovely wife, but you had expectations,
you wanted me to excel in study, i just managed to do well could not excel,
you wanted me to play football, i had a hell lot of video games to choose from,
you wanted me to do government job like you do, i argued of self satisfaction being in the job I am,
but dad truth is, I earn more than, you earned in your initial career, but you could save money, I could not,
you have a lovely wife , my mom, she loves you because you are perfect, I though have series of relationships, i could not manage because I am not perfect like you,
You had solutions to everything, I find solutions in internet and then could do nothing,
Dad, you never raised hand on me, you never shouted on me,
I remember those days when you had a Bicycle, you used to take me for a ride in evening, i used to cry whenever i sit on that rod between the handle and seat, you could not see me crying and adjusted a soft seat for me,
Dad , trust me today if i have to do this for my kids, i have to wait till weekend, I am not sure which shop in this big city will have this thing to mend,
Dad, I was raised in a very small town, we together dreamed of me working in big city, but dad I have no friends here, in this crowded big city , were i earn a lot, i am not in peace as you are, I am not fit as you are, i am not Mr. Perfect as you are,
Dad that day , you paid a visit to me in my so called big city, your eyes was moist seeing my latest Car, but at the same time you were sad because i eat outside daily, Dad i know you are also aware of my bad habits of smoking, still you kept silent, you did not raised hand when you found the Cigarette packet from my pocket,
Dad you should have hit me, you should have given a piece of your mind, may be in your place i would have kicked my son, but you were aware that i am grown up and know what is good and what is bad, but dad i am not sure till date what is good and bad,
Travelling across India, new place, new faces though made me tough to adjust in any situation dad, but i am alone and lonely in this crowd, i still need you every hour , i still need you to hold my hand, because still i fear to cross the road,
Dad,
Forgive me for not asking "How are You"
Because i just cant say lie to you like i lie to mom" I am not Fine"
Your's Son,
